Anything Considered: Struggles

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Struggles

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

I've been feeling tired and weary. Army has not been the best of worlds, and thus far every challenge put to me has been met with little or no success.

Honestly, I don't like failing. Worse still is being expected to fail more often than not. In such situations it would be apt to rise to the occasion, but right now I'm just floundering - in work, and in life.

It's so easy to find all the good labels for oneself when things are going well. I'm sure I had at some point thought myself perceptive and generally a nice guy. Yet right now the labels are falling apart. I feel like it's back to the old days in lower sec school. Just that this time, I think I'm going down without a fight.

I hate letting people down - nice people especially. I hate letting myself down. I want to fight to change things but I need more to draw from. More of everything. And of course, more peace.

posted by Jared
3:56 PM

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